"Living at risk is jumping off the cliff
and building your wings on the way down."

- Ray Bradbury

Monday, September 27, 2004
went arnd doing silly quizzes.. :D


you are one horny smiley


What Smiley Are You?
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You represent... apathy.
You don't really show any emotion. You can be
considered cruel and cold, but you just don't
really care about anything. This is just the
way you are... you're quite a challenge to get
close to, and others may perceive you as
boring.


What feeling do you represent?
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What Ice Cream Flavor Are You?
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You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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haha.. i'm so impressed by ruying! highscore for my quiz man! 75%! hahaha.. deary, u'r the best. i was so worried u wldnt top it but u did! i'm so touched.. :D love u lots~

anw i went shopping with joanne n peiying 2day.. hahaz.. bought 2 tops, a watch n earrings! haha.. i still wanna buy many things man.. just lack the purchasing power. (i noe my econs okay.. :p)

shopping list:

1. backpack
2. slippers
3. shoes
4. clothes
5. cat!

haiz.. i really wanna get a kitten. dunno y suddenly v crazy abt them. haha.. keep thinking of getting 1 . anw my mum's talking to me again. so weird. haha.. but of cos, i'm not complaining :) have some stupid dress-to-impress course tmr. sounds silly.. after dat got class bbq though! dat'll brighten up my day if the course really sux. oh. n i hafta go celebrate vivienne n andrea's bdays tmr with the team too. hahaz.. Happy 18th Bday girls!

You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.


What season are you? (pics)
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Sunday, September 26, 2004

i'm so bored.. haha.. tried to do some studying but just cant get started. keep wanting to go n lie down on the bed. hahaz.. anw i really think i'm not a family-oriented person. sumtimes i wonder if i'll miss my family if i'm away for a long time. the last time i remember missing them was in sec 1 when i went for some horrible camp. mayb i missed home cos the camp was totally horrible.. cos when i went to m'sia during june dis yr, i din even think abt any1 back home at all.

now my mum's not talking to me for some stupid reason but i dun really care. it's not the 1st time or the 2nd time or the 3rd time.. -shrugs- used to it alr. dun talk den dun talk lor. i nv had much to talk to her abt anw. sumtimes she just makes me feel as if she's nice to me cos i'm the smartest in the family n she always lyk to tell me to study hard cos the family's going to depend on me next time. how nice.

was thinking abt wad i wan in life. den i decided dat when i start work, i wanna make lots of money n buy my own house so i can live alone. n i wan to buy a kitten! haha.. but i was thinking.. how am i going to toilet train it? do i have to in the 1st place? hahaha.. i love cats :D

go do my quiz if u have time. did it for fun after peiling asked me to do hers. hahaz
Just click (or copy and paste) this link and you'll be taken to my quiz.http://connect.tickle.com/test.html?id=WsSI5r4kSukvkRcw&

He likes to be by himself a lot, but don't let that
scare you off. He has a very caring soul and he
will always love you from the bottom of his
heart! And if your friends start telling you
hes not your type, ignore them or laugh in
their faces. You are the key to unlock that
heart of his^^.


What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^)
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i was shocked by the result.

Saturday, September 25, 2004

went to catch the Best Of Blue Concert yday thx to beat! thx again dear! -hugs- it was nice! love antony.. :) too bad yday not my b'day.. damn! haha.. oh wells.. :D

wanted to update my blog the day b4 yday but cldnt for some reason. dis is for sum1 who most prob dunno dis blog exists n wun get to read it. but still, here goes..

i dunno y but dis days there's suddenly alot of things dat remind me of u n i really dun lyk it. the other day when u came to talk to me on msn, i cldnt stop staring at ur display pic. it really made me feel v bu shuang. den after dat on monday when u saw me in sch, i dunno y u just had to catch my attention n smile at me esp since u nv did dat for such a freaking long time. i'm sorry i din smile back though i waved. i was q shocked n din really c the nid to smile back. wad's the point? i just dun feel lyk being too frenly with u anymore. anw i din even noe u were right there cos i was luking at the clock until u waved n smiled. dun do dat again pls. dun smile at me.

was watching tv the other day n sumhow the tv show remind me of u. i suddenly realised dat after we graduate, i probably will nv c u again. it made me feel v sad but i was v relieved at dat tot at the same time. during prelims when we had the same papers in the hall, i'd keep luking out for u. during the GP paper u were sitting sumwhere near n even walked right in front of my table twice. i dun really wan to c u, but when i do, i just cant stop luking, so i'd rather not c u anymore. sumtimes when i c u online, i'll feel lyk talking to u but i wun ever msg u unless u msg me 1st. but i think i'd rather we not talk anymore too. i'm just waiting for sch to end n hopefully, i'll nv ever c u again in my life after dat.

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

hey shifu! u told me u read my blog the other day so.. dis is for u! hahaz.. i dunno if i ever told u, but i think u'r a damn nice n damn farny guy. really. hahaz.. dat day when u were my 'alarm clock', i was telling u "i'll wake up wan lah" n u said sth lyk "yah we all do wake up eventually u noe." it made me laugh. hahaz.. mug hard for 'A's yah? u still havent teach me vectors! haha.. dun always glue urself to the com lah. when u'r on for duty at nite again, sms me if u nid me to keep u awake -hugs- :D

yay! prelims r over! yah i noe.. still got 'A's.. haha.. but it's okay. will start muggingmugging again when i rest enough. lols.. feels gd to b exam-free for the time being! hm.. must go watch movies n go out! hm.. beat they all still haf whitby's paper tmr afternoon.. gd luck guys! u all can do it :D

Friday, September 17, 2004

com was down with some stupid virus but i think i managed to get rid of it. i hope. hahaz.. my blog had some prob w the template so i just anyhow change it to sth else. after prelims den come back to it lah.. prelims gone case alr. been slacking most of the time now. bleahs

Monday, September 13, 2004

damn sian...... just took the physical geog paper.. haiz.. hopefully my essays din go wrong cos my drqs suck lyk hell. bleahs.. damn it. but i'm proud of myself for remembering all the desert stuffs n slope stuffs! haha.. they better earn more marks for me.. haiz

there was dis guy on the bus i took home who 'spilled' out nth but vulgarities everytime he opened his mouth when he talked on his hp. sumtimes i really wonder y is it only (okay, mayb i shd say "mostly") guys who talk in such a way. it's just so.. annoying. n the thing is he was shouting over the phone abt taking knives n fight. so dumb. guys lyk dat shd have their mouths sewn closed.

sat beside dis guy from some special sch for awhile. actually he came to sit with me lah, but anw i din really noe until he made some funny noise n started bobbing arnd in the seat. for a moment got q scared for some reason. but then i felt stupid for feeling dat way n felt q sorry for pple lyk him. but mayb it's not so bad being the way he is cos at least he's happy always. he kept smiling n laughing. made me wonder y i'm not lyk him. it's not so nice being a 'normal' person after all..

speaking of smiling.. sum1 smiled at me when i was buying food in the canteen. was q surprised dis days cos he came to talk to me n stuffs. so unexpected. anw i was just looking in his general direction when i noticed him smiling at me. din q noe how to react n i wasnt in the smiling mood so i just waved n turned away. -shrugs- bleahs

Friday, September 10, 2004

Open Arms

Lying beside you here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper you're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together and drifted apart
And here you are by my side

So now I come to you with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me
Open arms

Living without you living alone
This empty house is so cold
Wanting to hold you wanting you near
How much I've wanted you home
But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay

So now I come to you with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me
Open arms

2 more days.. 1 if u exclude 2day.. how nice. i kinda miss sch, but i'm not terribly excited abt sitting for prelims.. dat's lyk.. argh.. :( i'm not prepared, n i'm not getting anything done dis days.. feeling lousy cos i just cant motivate myself enuf to get things going. really feel lyk slacking n everything but when i on the tv or use the com, there's dis nagging sense of guilt asking me "wad r u doing? u shd b mugmugmug-ing!" damn it. cant even do sth i enjoy without feeling guilty. stupidbooksstupidnotesstupidprelimsstupid'A's..

Thursday, September 09, 2004

damn it. i'm jealous! -curse myself-

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

haha.. suddenly think it's really true dat when pple arnd u r happy, u'll feel happy too.. :j guess my di's really, as ry wld say, "happily ever after".. kinda lost contact w him le, so i'm just glad things r going well for him. hahaz.. ry came over to study w me yday! if there's 1 thing i dun wan to change in my life, it's having ry as my deary/laopo.. u'r the best dear. love ya lotslotslots...

anw, i'm so freaking pissed off by God-noes-who the big fat bunch of gossip-mongers r.. if not for last nite, i wldnt have found out dat there'r SOME PPLE WHO JUST HAVE NTH BETTER TO DO BESIDES GOSSIPPING ABT PPLE BEHIND THEIR BACKS. n the BEST part is dat all the rumours r totally, absolutely, completely NOTHING BUT C-R-A-P. come on lah. whoever u all r, i dun nid u all going arnd telling pple wad happen in the past few yrs of my life. how much do u think u noe? n only simple-minded, gullible n pathetic FOOLS wld bother listening to the edited version of my life story. it's so damn laughable.

actually i'm really starting to suspect dat i'm weird. after so many things dat'v happened, i'm reallyreallyreally not affected. i dunno y but it's gd dat it's lidat lah.. cos i hafta mugmugmug hardhardhardER for prelims. next wk start le.. o man.... haiz.. life sux.. arghs.. all the tough papers r right in front. damn it.. there's just no time lah.. cant wait for all dis to b over.. -shrugs- at least there's sth to luk 4ward to! :D

Somehow.. i c some similarities.. :)

Diagnosis:
I do not know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere around territory of modern Ireland approximately on 1800.Your profession was seaman, dealer, businessman, broker.

Your brief psychological profile in that past life:
Bohemian personality, mysterious, highly gifted, capable to understand ancient books. Magician abilities, could be a servant of dark forces.

Lesson, that your last past life brought to present:
Your problem -- to learn to love and to trust Universe. You are bound to think, study, reflect, develop inner wisdom.

Now you remember?

http://www.absolutelyamazing.fsnet.co.uk/past_life.htm

haha.. went blog-surfing den saw dis on 1 of the blogs i read..

Answering machine...
(a). Hello, you've reached Jim and Sonya. We can't pick up the phone right
now, because we're doing something we really enjoy. Sonya likes doing it up
and down, and I like doing it left to right...real slowly. So leave a
message, and when we're done brushing our teeth we'll get back to you.


(b). Hi, this is John. If you are the phone company, I've already sent the
money. If you are my parents, please send money. If you are myfinancial aid
institution, you didn't lend me enough money. If you are my friends, you
owe me money. If you are a female, don't worry, I have >plenty of money.


(c). Hi, I'm probably home, I'm just avoiding someone I don't like. Leave
me a message, and if I don't call back, it's you.


d). Please leave a message. However, you have the right to remain silent.
Everything you say will be recorded and will be used by us.

haha.. too bad i dun haf answering machine. cld really haf put it to gd use YESTERDAY NITE. stupid asshole. pissed me off lyk hell. i'm glad i said the 2 WORD he'd always wanted me to say. i cant say its any1's fault, but i dun think i'm at fault. mayb dat's the prob with me. i dun really seem to think i'm in the wrong most of the time. bleahs.. i dun care. i dun care much abt anything.. din used to, not now, not ever

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